Nowhere to turn to, everyday I've been so lonely. You as it deem, is most important to me. I don't know where to vent my frustrations.

Nice timing too, in 2hours, 200days would have passed. Who would have thought, time to pass so fast.

Sometimes I feel like an alarm clock. You stay awake or wake up early, just to wake her up. Then again, you should be called Calming Soul. You stay up late, just to make sure she goes to sleep well. And then you maybe can be called Soul-less Wall. Between Alarm Clock and Calming Soul, you get nothing at all. Sure you get that 1-2 smses here and there. Apart from that, you really have no direction anymore. Nothing at all.

Heartache? You should be Michael. No wait, wake up. Stop being so dreamy. Why hurt yourself so much? Are you not trying enough? Not giving enough? What is the missing ingredient? Or is she the one not willing to try? This you will never know.

Or do what you are doing now, suck it all up. Suck it up till you self-destruct. You know yourself it's coming soon. And I know you can't take it anymore. With what has happened in you family, your work and now what you value most in life - your love-life, the end is near.

"Try or die trying"

Personally, I think I would try dying.

Hopeless,
Mike