I am Lonely but it's ok
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What lonely days, As per my last post. Only when the sun sets, and when the sun rises, do I get to speak to her. Whenever I look for her, she's probably too tired, too busy, too busy with her friends, and everybody else. WEll it is how life should be. Maybe that is what being independent is. I guess I have been too overly dependent on her existence. Tomorrow I will head out into the night life after work. Got to learn to be independent of anyone else. Maybe love is like keeping a kitten. The more you want the kitten to come to you, the more it runs away. Kittens, like to be touched and teased by everyone, but once it is lonely. It will run back to the one it loves. Whether this is true or not, We shall see. I'm tired. Been sick for 2 days, but to avoid her knowing, I kept quiet. Sitting alone in the cold, talking to no one. It makes me more lonely, more devoid of life. I really hope one day, things get better. Well I'll just start with plan 1. Friday night.