For a long time, I have wondered. Michael, what have you accomplished this lifetime?

Gave up your studies, Picked up some bad habits. Nothing fantastic. In fact you're less than average. Why would anyone dare to stake their future in your hands?

Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord. Psalm 31:24

I have hoped, and prayed. Hoping for a change in the one I love. We end up hurting each other, making life miserable for one another. My love has overwritten whatever hurt she has done to me, maybe because I have nothing to offer and my love is the only thing that keeps me going. I've been feeling so lost.

Stepping into the church today made me say sorry to her. Because of my own unhappiness, I have brought to her untold miseries. She has a happy life now, why should she be bothered?

Will there ever be space in her heart again for me? "I still love you baby" she tells me, her actions saying otherwise. I remember when we were both busy, and whenever we got time, it's the other party we're looking for. The happy times I have when I was busy with everything and every trouble I had at work, and her comforting smses always made me smile and move on with life.

Now nothing could be the same again. I think. Or at least how I feel at this point of time.

I love you Jasmine, if you ever are ready. I'm a call away, begging on both knees for you to return. I love you, can't help if tears start welling up in my eyes.

My family, is in shambles. I don't wish for my own to be this way. IF I am deemed unable by you, I shall not ruin your life. You just gotta say it. Fly all you want my love, because you'll always be my baby. Even though you might not feel it, or read this...

Mike