It's been a while, I needed the time and the energy to write. I've been so tired lately, working like a fool just to earn the extra cash for a better future, only to squander it all away haha. Things are so different now from the past. Dreams seem to be forever lasting. Ever since I started working without rest, I've been fearing I'll be spending less time with her. And then the stupid dreams crept up on me, just because I couldn't sleep after she left for work. Even in the short space of 1-2hrs, dreamworld seem like an eternity. I was left beaten after even dream. The more I couldn't get to sleep everyday. I guess the scale is pretty simple:- The more you love someone, the more you're afraid to lose the person, inevitably causing you to worry about things too much, making your relationship very rocky and unstable. That's what I'm facing now. Sometimes it's easy to say, "Hey I'm not jealous about other people being interested in you". I can tell people, they are just friends. But when it comes to me being in the picture, I cannot seem to execute it.

Easier said than done - that is what I'm trying to say.

This is indeed a testing period, in all relationships. IF the guy is not already stable in his career, he would not have time for anything else. In so, he is going to be one jealous bitch. Michael Liao, you better shape up, or end up being shipped out.

Loving you,
Mike