In the past one month, many things have happened. From me worrying I would lose her everyday, to me applying for cabin crew. Actually I wouldn't be so worried because I know my gf won't be so easily tackled by others. But maybe then I was quite unhappy because she seemed to like to know guys a lot. And I do mean a LOT. OF cos I got unhappy when I realise she was even more to keeping in close contact with these so called men. Any guy who knows their gf is around guys who actually like them will definitely be angry. I may be someone with a big heart but ultimately, due to my inexperience in love, I do lose my temper too. That resulted in us having quite a tough time for a couple of weeks.. But slowly I started letting my mind take the lead rather than my heart.. When you think with your heart, everything turns out negative. But when you think with your brains you actually know that things are actually not so bad afterall. In fact when I first started using my brains again after so long, I realised that I haven't been following what I preached. Then comes the most important line.

"Women enjoy the thrills of being courted, especially by more than one man"

I can understand how she feels, especially when this big buffalo in love with her never did court her.. But hey like I said once I started using my brains my body language and everything towards her changed. I was no longer the pessimistic man who was so afraid of losing her, but instead I was the strong man who was confident that she would never leave me. It was a blessing in disguise, God is wonderful for giving me such an analytical mind. Someone ever told me, the more you dwell on an issue, the more you will feel pain and insecurity. Nowdays, I just forget all those nonsense I have been thinking and just lead life normally with her. And To tell you the truth, we are happy, very happy :) I love the way we talk and play with each other, how we would keep giving in to each other for some reason. Love is about giving and taking, but of cos it cannot always be just giving, you must take some as well. And how much taken is correct depends on individual. I'm someone who loves to give, just take a little and I'll be satisfied. The simple man. Hope the Lord bless us through thick and thin. I love this woman-to-be.

Cabin Crew application? Nothing to talk about it haha.. Total failure I tell you.. Till next time, Stay focused and alert and be flexible to changes.

Man-in-love,
Mike