With every passing day, I have been yearning for my own home. Not that my gf's house is not good, not that her parents or family have been giving me pressure. In fact they have been very kind to allow me to stay over for so long. Somehow it does not feel so good to be staying at someone else's house for so long.. I have done it before, the drawbacks were not very good.. The longer you stay with someone, the more you might take each other for granted.. My gf means the world to me.. I'm not ready to give her up for any reason.. She has been my main driving force through my long and hard journey in life.. The past months have been horrible, from losing my status and being called "kid with an attitude", to finally able to getting my parents to get a divorce, I'm surprised and pleasantly please that she is still by my side, giving me all the support I can get.

It's not everyday that you see someone like this come into your life.. We might not be a match made in heaven (figure it out yourself), but one thing is for sure.. She doesn't mind what I look like or how I am in general, I am just too blessed to have found such a lovely lady to come into my life.. For that I truely thank the man up there, for setting this miraculous relationship up between two lost, wandering person..

No doubt time and again, we would have little tiffs (stupid ones that shouldn't even in the first place take place), we still maintain our love for each other a lot.. Sometimes I get upset because I can't see her.. Our shifts being the entire opposite of each others'. Sometimes because she's PMSing she gets pissed. Sometimes because I am stressed about particular stuffs and pull the long face she gets pissed. No matter what, so long as in the end, we do not end up fighting and make things up, the world would be a better place :)

One day I would wanna be able to see her walking down the aisle to my side, receive blessings from her father, and rightfully call her my wife. With all due respect I would love it that way.. Safe from all her suitors haha.. I truely love this woman-to-be.. I'll try my best to give her the very best.. Even if the mechanics in me fails, I'll continue trying.. Because I love this woman-to-be so much.. Baby I love you.. :)


Deliriously-in-love,
Mike